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Sunday, December 31, 2006

A New Hope

If you were given a chance, will you do things differently, do it ina nother way which u shall never regret again?

Hey dudez! Just a moment more it'll be a brand new year. Although it's not as exciting as driving your brand new car on the highway, it's something worth looking forward to. This year had been a challenging one. Truely, other than my first 3 years of toddler era, this year is indeed a great learning point. Or should i say, finally whacked hard on my head. Fortunately i'm still here blogging, normally.

There's too much assumption. Primarily it's deadly to assume tertiary education is as simple as secondary level. That assumption nearly murdered me. Of course i'm still here blogging normally. It's one year where i realise this motto: speak slowly but think fast. Actually most important is to think fast. Time is indeed precious. unlike my adolesence life, where i spent half of my time sleeping, jc life is tight. It's like running to chase the last train in your life. In your life, nothingh happen twice. Do it or drop it. and since u had done it, do it fast. wait somemore the lactic in you will kill you...

However it's not a bad year either. It's a year where i finally got to find my sense of belonging. It's finally where i realise life is not just enjoying the fruit of success, but to feel the process of success too. I was once asked: which is more important, results or process. Indeed business and science will matters only the final products. otherwise why Mr Trump only hire those who made the most cash for him and Science risk pollution for nuclear energy? However, life is not just about ur final fruits of labour. It's then i finally to really enjoy the beauty around us. Then i finally realise there's always someone caring and loving you, and as well as caring and love for others.

Of course this coming New Year is going to be a challenge. We will not know what lies ahead of us, but it's a chance for us to do what we missed, and this time no regrets.

May all wishes come true. Happy New YEar!!

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Life of Youth

Do you believe each of us has the chance to meet for a reason? I deeply believe in that faith. Similarly just how I gotta meet 2 girls ( k one of them is pretty lose control at times).

I was attending this SMRT emergency preparedness programme yesterday afternoon. Surprisingly unnoticeably, a few of us were surrounded by those girls from KCPS. But till now i still don get it, why for that preparedness programme, KCPS only send girls over?! somemore is 2 classes of them... Wth happen to those guys... Hmm, i didnt recall being that slack at tt age...

Then suddenly that 'everybody lose control' one started screaming for sweets like nobody business and thats how we minder into each other. We are the most noisy section in the MRT. Actually all thz to her lahz, honestly, even in the cabin u can hear her voice no matter where u were.

Still, manage to keep in contact with tt 2 whacky girls. Haha susprisingly we manage to keep in contact coz of my buddy. Well, to keep things confidential, i shall not mention names. Just a clue: it's damn obvious who my buddy is!!

That 2 girls reminded me of the youth i used to have. Chasing after boys and girls and gossip about each other. Doing all the nonsense and going whacky and wild. Unfortunately to me i was a bit different; i was holding a faith, a mist which blinded me and fogged my life. However, it was not a catastrophe, instead it's an experience.

It's from then i realise the power of love and the true meaning of sacrifice. It is then i gotta feel the sensation of missing someone. Expecially the days where we clear to go separate ways. It's the most traumatising. It's hurt the most when the most important person stepped off ur life. Spring without the sun and Autumn without without the moon. The most important essence is lost. It;s hard but not impossible to find the exit out of the maze. It's then i choose to separate from my cliques to come to this college. Start a new life a new person.

However, now i thinks i started to miss someone. Even though I know in the end I'll be the one hurt, this time i'm prepared for it.

May we live with no regrets

Merry Berry Xmas :)

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Remeniscence

Hey guys! It has been an exciting month! Never knew even during holidays can be that pack. However thank goodness, every work seems to have ceased by now. So toementing to be stretched between council and homework! OMG talking about it, i haven't seemed to start any work yet...

Well, this perhaps is the last week of my real holidays. Day by day keep lying to myself "there's tml" and ended up homework had been decomposing at my rack. Homefully no silverfish have been starting a family in there! Tsk tsk...

Today went to Billy Bombers, can it's a closing ceremony to my holidays?! Instead it turns out to be a fun and memorable occasion. It's so enjoying to sit together with cliques and have fun together: chat with one another + have fun beween my buddies with council dudes = HAVOC!! Haha, most interesting is the waiter. Well, looked kinda cute, no wonder janice seemed so shy to even talk to him... Can even feel the static she trying to electrify him with her eyes...

At times i do asked myself, a question i came across, what is my existance? It is indeed difficult to find an answer. However, so what if i live on and serve the college every day? Still, no matter how hard the effort can be, who will know it?

Each of us, only has a life. One chance to live on. However, what are you gonna do with your life? Life is about enjoyment. It just like painting a potriat. It can be full of darkness and loneliness, or full of colours and joy. U determines ur life, not life determines you. Sometimes we had the temtation to DEPEND on our life rather than CONTROLLING our life. We blames others when group works goes wrong, regret about the results when conscience are clear that no efforts are made.

However still, my existance was unanswered. What if one day, i was not in this World anymore, will it make a difference? Who will be the one crying for me and miss my presence?

We gotta end our life journey one day. In the end, it can be frightening or satisfying. It is all up to you, how u much u love everything around you.

Perhaps it is love that Jesus Christ ended his on the Cross.

May Ur life be fulfilled. Merry Christmas in Advanced!