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Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Be by my side

Nowadays it;s been pretty quiet. practically all my friends had started to chiong already. to make matter worst, the college had shifted to be pro-academic. Such a headache man! This explains why my free sms are gonna be heavily wasted this month.

Life has been pretty lonely these few days. Everyone seems to be very busy these days. Although i definitely had no objections to their rights in studying for major exam, life has been pretty tough to overcome such loneliness. Furthermore everyday my timetable ended at the early afternoon, there's simply too much too much time for my tutorial! Perhaps is my activeness that killed my enthusiasm. Finally i realise a cage come keep me still, just like the leo, it soars and ventures. I sigh for those who force themselves too hard. Life is not about books.

There are times i consider if it's the right time to get a partner. Heard of a friend who just engaged. Their times together are so warm and enjoyable. Simply each of them enjoyed opposites companionships. However, under most circumstances they met up just for studies. Indeed for a student, studies is our job to fulfill.

Actually i didn't really mind if our times were to be pro-academic too. It seems that we had been forced to. It'll be much better rather than staring at the 4 walls at home. now i even know how many dust particles are there in each corner of my room. Perhaps there's still certain things not controlled by man. If time to come, i know i'll have to make a choice. The difference is, this time i'm prepared for it.

It's not whether i wanted to but is whether if i could.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Thou shall care thy soul

It has been quite awhile after New Year that i had to create a post. Honestly, it has been a tiring period. First running around for Orientation, then now adapting to my new timetable, most importantly as a J2 student.

Running the Orientation is the most fulfilling things so far these year. Perhaps i'm easily fulfilled and satisfied. It's such joy of servicing, especially the sensation that you are felt belonged. For the Orientation, i'd learned many precious lessons of life. Indeed it's you reap what you sow. It is so satisfying when at the end of the day, the freshies all know this masterpiece would not be done without us. My council term is a rocky one. perhaps this is one chance where i start to stand up high and proud. I'm so proud of myself. My team rox, forever.

Orientation has been the most important event to me. It reminds me of the good days i used to had, especially the most beautiful moments of my jc1 life. It's the first 3 months of my j1 life when i met the best people in my life. That includes those who left me. People comes and goes, however fate always harsh on us, no matter if they fall or left behind, we still have to go on... I just hope soon we can meet again, although i know by that time, we wouldn't be the same.

Yet challenges do not just end here. Now there's the 2nd Orientation ahead. It's another significant opportunity to earn the honour of council. There are times where i asked myself: why would i go so far even in the end i know no ones will know what ki4t has done or even who ki4t is. Although i still don know the answer, till then i only know without me, things definitely will be different. I may not know will it be better, i will keep going till one day i fall...

Mr bernard Tan once asked me: why do you join council?
I replied: I find challenges to stretch myself to the maximum.

Even though he giggled, i'm serious.