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Mind over matter

There's once i watched over dicovery channel that the monks in Tibet could meditate to the extent which they generate enough body heat to dry the cold wet towel on them. This was a documentary on the power and potential of a human mind. Similarly, there's report that such thing as psychic does exist, all generated from the meditation of human mind. Looks like our human mind not only make us mutant and yet promote us to the next mutation.

Perhaps this time i should start meditating too. Hopefully i can achieve such devine powers. This Thurs will be a important event for me. Or should i say, honour for myself and the family. Ha, not my home that family, but my Draco family. Hilarious, i didn't know how i got into triple jump for the sports day. Even my Track n Field guys didn't even know how to jump lahz!
One day i'm gonna hunt down whoever put my name in there. No matter is it devinity or man. Meanwhile i gotta start training my mind to focus on my jump this Thurs. No distractions.

With anything, anything is possible. Remember what Nike always teaching us to: impossible is nothing. Hmm, looks like if i can reach the sand pit, i'll be earning 3 points for Draco. My friends needa participate 3 events to get 3 participating points! So easy, yet so far.

Stretching the power of the mind and utilize the potential to the maximum.

In whatever you do, as long as you put ur heart and soul into it, you produced the best result.

One motto:

Mind over matter

Triple jump fly!

Fall of the titan, rise of the new challenges

It can be described as the most drastic moments in life. Imagine that you had put up with so much torture and spent so much efforts with time, yet the results are not even met expectation. Perhaps, now then i understand how Thomas Edison felt when his first filament blew out and when Einstein's first theory was rejected. Just one word: disppointment.

Today I had collected my results. Although i scored B's and C's for my H2, yet i wasn't satisfied. Some may think that with this result is fantastic, but imagine this result in a class with existence of distinctions, perhaps the big fish you were referring to was actually a small fish in its big pond.

I think i'm a little paranoia. Can't help it: spirit of compeetition. I even told my friend that may be i needa make an appointment with the school counsellor soon. Afterall, i frequently saw the counsellor queueing up at the cafe. More or less should give her some business to do.

Furthermore, our college had been winning quite a lot of Silvers and a Gold for SYF lately. I'm simply so proud of them, especially when i gotta know some friends from those groups too. Then, i started to reflect upon myself: They may not be some big popular people in the college, yet they are proud of them selves and what they are doing. Indeed they should. Me in Student Council? Time for me to work even harder.

Of the many things that are happening in ur life, it is ur choice whether to be happy or sad with it.

At least i'm still conscious what does happy means. At least i still remember to be happy.

Since i'd studied so hard, it's about time to plan how to play hard.

Shucks, now gotta think of new strategies. Signs of changes are showing. Ready for the tide. Now, is never too late.

Wish ya all 天天开心

Living in my dream

I suppose is due to accumulation over the past few weeks that iron man finally's down. Well, how does the iron man fall? Rust.

I can say that it has been a long time that i get a MC. When was the last time i see a doc? Can't recall. To my astonishment, my previous visit to the doc in my nearby clinic was 3 years ago! No wonder even the doc i consulted last time wasn't there. Still, how come my mum has such strong impression of her? Women sixth sense just can't be explained.

Still, staying indoor the whole day was indeed tormenting. Firstly, tutorials. Finally i just realised that the holiday is not even near after the common test. Shucks! thankgoodness i remembered to get a day off from the doc. At least now i got the time to do my tutorials.

Next, everyone's in college. Darn it. How m i gonna disturb anyone when thery are in college?! I would feel guilty for the rest of my life if i caused them to miss their distinctions by sms them during class. Classes and lectures are important u know? Stressed by our Principal.

Well, so staying indoor the whole day is torturing. one of my pals even messaged me not to slack at home, must do tutorials. He should pity me and ask me to stay away from tutorials instead. I have been staying up at home doing nothing but eat sleep and do homework. I think i rather go to school. Why can't the college be flexible a bit? Sometimes the college can be a living hell.

Well, feeling numb now. still gotta face medicine A to Z. Perhaps it's time where we should trust chinese medicine?

One phrase to describe myself now: Sick old cat

So Young yet so far

Hmm, somehow i dunno if i should be glad that common tests are over. Just felt the relieve that the stress and pressures are over! For the time being. Still, although the tests are over, somhoww things are just don feel quite right. For once i thought after the tests are over finally can enjoy life. Well, looks like many others had adopted the habits of mugging. Well, looks like Monday still needa go college. Yeah, now i have no reason not to do my tutorials.

Since i can't find anyone to kill time, i must as well let others kill my time. Y'day just attended my sister's marching parade at the Home Team Acedemy. Really, although it was a magnificient event for her, it was more like a time machine for me. Sucked back to the uniform group life i used to have in secondary school. Well, i do admit that those are one of the most stressless era in my whole life, so far. Everyday just eat sleep study, don have to worry about anything close to council and public relations, and so comical to see all my guy friends chasing after girls and jealous of each other. *laughs* What a life. Still, the days in the uniform group are memorable. The feeling of being the boss of the whole squad is indeed beyond description. Unfortunately, the breed of recruits we had each year is deteriorating, good thing i graduated without worrying how to train the new generation.

Just love the teamwork we used to have. Hope I can feel the same in Council too. Haiz...

Well, Back to reality. Didnt really feel anything else other than threatened. First, i assumed that many parents are going to visit their daughter's great event and support their performance (mind you, my sis is in a single sch). So there must be many outside people boarding the bus with the NPCC recruits. In the end, it turned out that there's only another mother with us taking the bus! Well, u should have guessed, i'm the only guy there. Fortunately my mum is with me, at least i won felt that threatened. Yet unfortunately my mum is around, so i can't join in the rah-rah with them in the bus. Shucks, no chance to teach them the soccer team n erebus cheers. Hmm, if they learned that they may all go crazy in the bus. So, never learn is still a good thing. However, they're already going crazy on the bus with their OWN cheers.

I was wondering how come my sis have so many chances to perform in the uniform group?! My CCA teachers do have to re-consider their performances. Anyway, it doesn't matter now. I'm already in JC. I'm already belongs to the Council.

Sadness in pursuing Happiness

Today just went over to the Serangoon Secondary School for their investiture. Well, at first i suppose i just only have to be a normal audience to sit there and clap only when necessary. What shocked me the most, is that SRJC may be the only invited college to their investiture, and that's why i'm the only ones there. Still, i can't deny the great honour to represent the college for their investiture. Well, hope that they remembered that not only SRJC is the sole guest appeared to their 07 investiture, at least remembered that only one sole guest appeared in blazer with a college crest: me(?!).

So fun to attend their investiture. Of course i just love to jump in to action without considering, that's what i called maximising challenges. Well, Dep Head, don't worry i'm not blaming you in anyway, sometimes going alone can be quite fun too! Just some interesting stuff happened today. Before I mention you should've guessed what happened when you're the only guest attending their major event. Haha, everyone just crowd around me as if i'm some magician entertaining the kids! They are just cute people. Although I can say those guys there still need more skills in socialising. They're so shy as if I'm going to eat them up! Hmm, at least the ladies there are not that disappointing. Ha, no sexist comments.

The first prefect i gotta know is Ming Jia. She somehow gave me a mixed feelings: a little of shyness yet courageous and naive. Hmm, I don't blame them being too nervous and give me that feeling as if i'm gonna do somtthing worng to them. Just needa brush up on some skills. Actually today more like brushing up my skills. Telling them jokes, hot jokes and cold jokes ( they're even more colder than me though) and no jokes. Well, i dunno if i'm entertaining them or bored them, but at least there's some noise! Anyway, that Ming Jia gave me a deep inpression. She's one of those first few who showed me a proper hospitality. She's kinda short and cute. Should've seen her shocked expression with big eyes when she realised i was gonna change into their blazer. She just looks like 18th Melissa! Just feel like squashing her cheeks and rubbed tightly. Haha cruel yet that's how tempting she is.

Generally it was a never before chance and experience. Pity those who never did attended with me. Just pitiful that i forgot to take pictures with the prefects there! I think some even felt i talked so much and can't wait to chase me out. Well, they should thank my chinese paper; nearly late when i fled to college from there.

On the other hand something came into my mind randomly as i was taking a rest just now. Pretty bugging and sticky. I still recalled the last time i told my friend that i'd a crush on someone. Still, it was a long time ago thing, thus don bother guessing who. Yet instead of some encouragement or at least something comforting, she told me: when others realised that u liked her, you are hurting many other people out there as well. Hmm to think about it, now then i realised how. Although in the end the whole crush turned out to be nothing, yet i figured out what she meant. Somehow she's trying to tell me that when i was focusing too much on a person, i may tend to neglect those around me. Sounds logical? I dunno. Such a mysterious prophecy.

Well, what if now i'd fallen onto someone. To me, now it doesn't matter anymore. Cos if it was true, my own happiness can caused many other misery, I may choose to remain in misery myself for other's happiness.

Just hope by that time i'll ve the courage to face the problems.

Anyway, it really doesn't anymore. As long as both of us are happy with each other presence, that's what matters most.

Just last few words:

爱你也难，恨你也难。

Talk to me.

Compass of life

All matters respect the balance of order of life. Just like the ancient explanation to the yin and yang, everything has its actions and reactions. Well, I wished to share the wonders of Tai-ji but unfortunately i can't, i only knows it has been a rough week for me.

Perhaps i'm not spared from the balance of orders of things. It has been such an emotion week. Maybe ya have experienced, for some reasons, u just don't feel the way u were before. Somehow a stressful and pressurising sensations overwhelmed me. Now i suspect it's the pressure accumulated from the rah-rahs i'd for the past few weeks. Well, for every happy moments i had enjoyed, now paying the price. Bless my common test.

Although i must admit, things are not over yet. Emotions can get rocky. Emotions are like little candle wick, wriggle and swayed when blow upon. However, as long as ur flame burn strong, ur little flame will not only swayed lesser but lit stronger. At least this time, i faced troubles with a smile.

It was from this thin book "who moved my cheese?" . Well, it was supposedly to be a business guide, teaching the enlightenment in business-psychological success. Yet i felt these guides aren't just retricted to just business. In the end, everything still obeyed the principles of life.

In life, do give every new things a chance. It is there for a purpose and u never know if its presence is to fulfil ur purpose until u tried it.

That was one facinating guide. It teaches us to dare to face new challenges and move on in life. Now recall, the last time u experienced a had-knock on to an obstacle. How long did ya take to move on? Sometimes it is the fear and uncertainties that hinder us from our journey. We do not know what lies ahead and uncertain on what to do next. Yet only the minor successful people will think that: i'd to do something, just anything, rather than nothing. Courage is necessary, whereas optimism is essential too.

I had seen quite some friends who are uncertain towards their life. Some are worried over studies, whereas some are troubled over relationships, yet some are died out of nothing. They are worries for their common test. They had seen their results from the previous test and it wasn't a positive one; now they fear of getting the same again. Whereas those who are troubled with relationships, seems to be clinged onto the sinking ship, drowning along with it not wanting to let go.

Simply saying:
The more important the things are, the more difficult to let it go. Yet only when u r willing to let it go, then u have the hands to save urself.

Just hope they find the reasons to move along. As i can gurantee, there will be always people willing to help ya. It's when i let the person in my mind go, then i realised that there are many people caring for me. I'm so pitiful, yet so touched.

We just have to know that pressures and stress, troubles and problems will always find ways to intrude into our life. Yet actually, whether we will survive through with scars all over us or just with a lightly leap is all depends on us.

When sailing in the endless sea, don trouble over whether there's food for tml, rather believe that u'r going to reach the shore soon.

As far as i know now i'm learning how to be like water, flexible to flow through all pressures. Although i dunno whether i may survive the common test, i only have to believe i can. Because i knew i can.

Call me when ya need help people! At least i'm there. Cheers!

Cry out loud and Feel my presence

It has been an emotionless week. Somehow I just dunno why. Perhaps, there are certain things in this World which just happened out of no reasons and didn't expect anything from it too.

Yesterday, when i was sitting quietly at one corner in the library doing my chinese composition, i received an unexpected guest. Shucks, he really knows when to come in when i was strongly engrossed with my composition ( well, my chinese teacher better sobbed but not vomit blodd after reading it). Who can it be other than dear MR Yew. Well, i do admit that i do get irritated with the world and somehow i dunno why my anger frequently displayed in his class. Take the last time i'd a conference with him for example, even my friends never know how pissed i'm with the World, yet i'm discussing it with him. God must have made me to trust him a lot.

Well, he just out of nowhere and sat on my table. At my first glance i thought was some buddy dropping by. As quick as i notice, my friends don use colonge. I realised it's him when he asked me that same question; that familiar question which i never fail to identify who he is when asked: "are u still an angry man? " Hilarious, comical yet solemn. Well, in the end i just faked him a smile and he said what have to be said then leave.

" no matter whether are u an angry man or not, most importantly u only have to do the right thing."

Once, i asked him before:

Will u care for the World when the World does not care for u anymore?

Indeed it's hard when u didn't realise the purpose of doing things. It was because of that i was pissed the other time. Hope not this time too. This time i'm just learning to love myself.

For only when you love yourself, then u can love others.

Indeed, loving some1 is difficult. That includes loving them even when they didn't love u. Tormenting.

I'm started to feel that i'm in a transition state. Somehow, I don really feel real. Hmm, perhaps it'll take a few more weeks before i find back my old self? Somehow, i just feel like missing some mysterious person. Is this good?

How wonderful if we can even express to each other through silence. I really missing my own laughter to those cold jokes. I really miss the smiles of others when they heard my jokes.

May happiness showered the World.

Everything has a beginning has an end

It has been quite a long while since i blogged the last time. Well, definitely it's because i'm still adjusting to the new time-table. Only gotta released from class as early as 5, it's not a very good sign for some1 like me who'll become AP easily w/o enough sleep. Yet, it has been quite an interesting fortnight.

2 weeks ago at this time, i had sent my China buddy off to the nearest MRT. At that point in time there's only one phrase up in my mind: it's gonna be a challenging fortnight. Welcoming a Chinese pro into my college in CHINESE indeed is gonna be a big challenge. However, it does not turn out quite bad at all. Actually i find my buddy pretty cute, especially when we bluffed him that some1 died at a roc-moc wall ( i still believe it's a myth). Just can't forget his expression. Never know he really buys tt. Haha... Through this 2 weeks i then realised he may looked like a big man on the outside, yet the has a little cute boy inside. Somehow I feel like i was having a boy buddy instead! He is such an interesting dude. However, I'll never ever forget him, especially when he announced somethings cheeky to the whole council in the frewell video. He really knows how to make people remember him. Hope he has a smooth journey ahead!

Of course nature has its balance. It was a last week that i was prompted to receive an urgent call. Someone close. About something which had ended long time ago. Something which i trying to avoid. Some message i trying to send. Obviously, everything went wrong. Indeed everything has its beginning has an end. Such an irony that i had forgotten this idea i used to have. Many things in life created many illusions and caused us to have many assumptions. Partially because of miscommunications. Yet, i suppose by then, ignorance is bliss. I have been trying to avoid. Unfortunately it just came back to me. In my whole life, I had never slapped a person to wake up in my life before. I told ya, it's gonna change everything, including u. I could only hope that after which, light finally showed upon you to guide your way. Just like i said, It has ended long time ago. Again and again. Hate me curse me if u wish, just don't do it again. At least for once, for your own good.

It is then i realised many things are not as easy as said. One of the most disastrous events in life frequently accompanied with one reluctance to let go. Indeed there are many things in life that we are never ever prepared of. Life are just like a small sampan in the sea, not knowing when dangers will hit onto our weak soul. However the most important thing is to comtinue moving. Hit by a wave, keep moving. Hit by pirates, keeep moving. One thing for sure: if I still remain at the same spot, i'll be hit by the same thing again. Perhaps this is why i'd become emotionless when i heard of her relationship. It's not i'm not serious, it's because there's nothing i can do.

Still, these few days heard of many more stories. Well, sometimes i just curious where it originated from. Indeed it is one most numb period of my life. Just in one term, I was slapped hard on the face and now i just slapped some1. Indeed, now what is relationships to me?

Then i just realised:
As long we are happy with each other's presence it does not matter whether we are in relationship or not.

Well, indeed this may be the problem with most my friends having now. Hmm, but still there are certain things in life which a single may not understand. So don't be too glad though.

Wishing a happy belated Good Friday!

By the way, pretty interesting to watch The REAPING y'day. Quite suits Good Friday atmosphere too. Well, some1 really believed my bluff that i fell asleep in the movie. Haha.