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Saturday, April 07, 2007

Everything has a beginning has an end

It has been quite a long while since i blogged the last time. Well, definitely it's because i'm still adjusting to the new time-table. Only gotta released from class as early as 5, it's not a very good sign for some1 like me who'll become AP easily w/o enough sleep. Yet, it has been quite an interesting fortnight.

2 weeks ago at this time, i had sent my China buddy off to the nearest MRT. At that point in time there's only one phrase up in my mind: it's gonna be a challenging fortnight. Welcoming a Chinese pro into my college in CHINESE indeed is gonna be a big challenge. However, it does not turn out quite bad at all. Actually i find my buddy pretty cute, especially when we bluffed him that some1 died at a roc-moc wall ( i still believe it's a myth). Just can't forget his expression. Never know he really buys tt. Haha... Through this 2 weeks i then realised he may looked like a big man on the outside, yet the has a little cute boy inside. Somehow I feel like i was having a boy buddy instead! He is such an interesting dude. However, I'll never ever forget him, especially when he announced somethings cheeky to the whole council in the frewell video. He really knows how to make people remember him. Hope he has a smooth journey ahead!

Of course nature has its balance. It was a last week that i was prompted to receive an urgent call. Someone close. About something which had ended long time ago. Something which i trying to avoid. Some message i trying to send. Obviously, everything went wrong. Indeed everything has its beginning has an end. Such an irony that i had forgotten this idea i used to have. Many things in life created many illusions and caused us to have many assumptions. Partially because of miscommunications. Yet, i suppose by then, ignorance is bliss. I have been trying to avoid. Unfortunately it just came back to me. In my whole life, I had never slapped a person to wake up in my life before. I told ya, it's gonna change everything, including u. I could only hope that after which, light finally showed upon you to guide your way. Just like i said, It has ended long time ago. Again and again. Hate me curse me if u wish, just don't do it again. At least for once, for your own good.

It is then i realised many things are not as easy as said. One of the most disastrous events in life frequently accompanied with one reluctance to let go. Indeed there are many things in life that we are never ever prepared of. Life are just like a small sampan in the sea, not knowing when dangers will hit onto our weak soul. However the most important thing is to comtinue moving. Hit by a wave, keep moving. Hit by pirates, keeep moving. One thing for sure: if I still remain at the same spot, i'll be hit by the same thing again. Perhaps this is why i'd become emotionless when i heard of her relationship. It's not i'm not serious, it's because there's nothing i can do.

Still, these few days heard of many more stories. Well, sometimes i just curious where it originated from. Indeed it is one most numb period of my life. Just in one term, I was slapped hard on the face and now i just slapped some1. Indeed, now what is relationships to me?

Then i just realised:
As long we are happy with each other's presence it does not matter whether we are in relationship or not.

Well, indeed this may be the problem with most my friends having now. Hmm, but still there are certain things in life which a single may not understand. So don't be too glad though.

Wishing a happy belated Good Friday!

By the way, pretty interesting to watch The REAPING y'day. Quite suits Good Friday atmosphere too. Well, some1 really believed my bluff that i fell asleep in the movie. Haha.