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Friday, April 20, 2007

Sadness in pursuing Happiness

Today just went over to the Serangoon Secondary School for their investiture. Well, at first i suppose i just only have to be a normal audience to sit there and clap only when necessary. What shocked me the most, is that SRJC may be the only invited college to their investiture, and that's why i'm the only ones there. Still, i can't deny the great honour to represent the college for their investiture. Well, hope that they remembered that not only SRJC is the sole guest appeared to their 07 investiture, at least remembered that only one sole guest appeared in blazer with a college crest: me(?!).

So fun to attend their investiture. Of course i just love to jump in to action without considering, that's what i called maximising challenges. Well, Dep Head, don't worry i'm not blaming you in anyway, sometimes going alone can be quite fun too! Just some interesting stuff happened today. Before I mention you should've guessed what happened when you're the only guest attending their major event. Haha, everyone just crowd around me as if i'm some magician entertaining the kids! They are just cute people. Although I can say those guys there still need more skills in socialising. They're so shy as if I'm going to eat them up! Hmm, at least the ladies there are not that disappointing. Ha, no sexist comments.

The first prefect i gotta know is Ming Jia. She somehow gave me a mixed feelings: a little of shyness yet courageous and naive. Hmm, I don't blame them being too nervous and give me that feeling as if i'm gonna do somtthing worng to them. Just needa brush up on some skills. Actually today more like brushing up my skills. Telling them jokes, hot jokes and cold jokes ( they're even more colder than me though) and no jokes. Well, i dunno if i'm entertaining them or bored them, but at least there's some noise! Anyway, that Ming Jia gave me a deep inpression. She's one of those first few who showed me a proper hospitality. She's kinda short and cute. Should've seen her shocked expression with big eyes when she realised i was gonna change into their blazer. She just looks like 18th Melissa! Just feel like squashing her cheeks and rubbed tightly. Haha cruel yet that's how tempting she is.

Generally it was a never before chance and experience. Pity those who never did attended with me. Just pitiful that i forgot to take pictures with the prefects there! I think some even felt i talked so much and can't wait to chase me out. Well, they should thank my chinese paper; nearly late when i fled to college from there.

On the other hand something came into my mind randomly as i was taking a rest just now. Pretty bugging and sticky. I still recalled the last time i told my friend that i'd a crush on someone. Still, it was a long time ago thing, thus don bother guessing who. Yet instead of some encouragement or at least something comforting, she told me: when others realised that u liked her, you are hurting many other people out there as well. Hmm to think about it, now then i realised how. Although in the end the whole crush turned out to be nothing, yet i figured out what she meant. Somehow she's trying to tell me that when i was focusing too much on a person, i may tend to neglect those around me. Sounds logical? I dunno. Such a mysterious prophecy.

Well, what if now i'd fallen onto someone. To me, now it doesn't matter anymore. Cos if it was true, my own happiness can caused many other misery, I may choose to remain in misery myself for other's happiness.

Just hope by that time i'll ve the courage to face the problems.

Anyway, it really doesn't anymore. As long as both of us are happy with each other presence, that's what matters most.

Just last few words:

爱你也难，恨你也难。

Talk to me.