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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

HOPE

Hmm well, today has many things to mentioned about. Perhaps these few days had many short stories to share. Everyday have to accumulate a few to keep my blog survive though.

Firstly is Today's chemistry paper. Today's paper only has one word to describe: catastrophic. Suddenly everything seemed to be collapsing. Indeed, this may be the final test that had put upon me, yet most likely i'm gonna fail it. I have been studying chemistry, mugging the TYS inside out outside ( ok maybe not to the extent that i even mugged the syllabus requirement yet, but still...) still i can't make it for today's paper. Somehow i wondered how does the Chemistry teacher survived. Perhaps they really practice the taboo to burn the TYS into ashes and drink it with water? Well, perhaps so, but i won't do it. Not because I don believe that superstitions ( i'll practice it IF i'm desperate), but i don think my liver can take it though. Eating papers is alright (?), but ashes? Oh thx, no.

Secondly is the boredom. Though i know that now can be termed the 'desperate period' for mid year. For those desperates they know what it meant. This is the last minute mugging time, one have to be wise to make FULL use of time available to do the last minute sprint. Yet this few days when i was mugging, i suddenly realised something.

Of all the hardwork you put in, what is it that you are working for? Is it something worth working for, is it something worth fighting for?

It's scary but true. Such a thought actually can be deadly, cos it hinted that pessimism already started to grow on you. However, it is not absolute negative either. It can be healthy to think of this frequently too. It made me asked myself what actually m i pursuing and fighting for. Why are u studying so hard? Why are you putting in so much work? Mid year? A lvl?

No, it's all about hope. It's the shadow of success where we normally neglected, yet it is the important element that helped us succeed.

Thare are many times i wished to drop a message to see how she's doing. Still, i prefer to keep our timing to after 6. Somehow i can sense what she's doing every afternoon and know her routine already. Napping in the afternoon is a good idea :) She needa study though.

Lastly, it's one small yet annoying thing: ANTS ARE INVADING MY TABLE!! Well, long story, but simply it started with dunno when ants started to scout around my table. Ever since for dunno what, I've been engaging different strategies against their colony. It seems even i engaged a genocide against them, they still continuing crawling around. 2 things i learnt: Ants pursue their dream no matter what AND Ants have no brain. I have recorded a chronicle of events about the it:

DAY 1 - 24TH JUNE 1300H

Today something seems different. Suddenly my table seems to have more life than ever. It has been for 1 mth and i still haven figure out the source of their invasion. Had Ants really revolting against nature and fighting against man?! Don't know and i don think i ll know. Yet still haven notice any significant pattern to their attacking tactics yet. They're still scouting around, though some bit me. Well, can't blame me accidently squash ya comarades with TYS right?! Hmm, still observing for pattern, hope their trail lead me to something. PEACE V(",)
- never underestimate things that are small.