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Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Memories: Sweet yet bitter things

Despite both of us are freed from schooling, we hardly have time to meet up during holidays too. Then we have lectures and tutorials to attend. Now we have our Mid year exams to catch. When i heard that she wants to study when i bluffed her to come out next week, I was so relieved. She knows her direction. She never gives up and eventually she'll excel to her best ability. If she needs help, I'm more than willing to help her too.

Yesterday we meet up to catch a movie together. We have fun. The movie was hilarious and knowing that i'd not chose the wrong movie to make her happy, I was so relieved. Then we found a place to slack the rest of the evening after stuck up in the cold movie house for so long. We even took some photos there. I can say that those are the first few photos we took while together. There's one very meaningful one too.

Those photos will leave a deep memory in me. For my days with her, I could not describe how much she meant to me. I've always appreciate her presence and telling myself never to take her for granted. Initially it started in a spark: She was the first person which i can felt the true warmth which i'd lost for long time. Then later, it happened as both of us wanted to know each other more. Now, we knew each other even more though. Yet the difference is we were even closer than before.

Yet when I heard some songs over the FM, with sudden thoughts of her, suddenly i felt saddening. Everyday I've missed her presence. Yet i always told myself to give her space and myself some private moments to console myself. It's sweet when I finally met up with her however at a more painful expense. Then I was thinking what will happened when our time together was up.

I know that eventually we will reach our cross-road. Soon I'll be serving the goverment and she'll have to study for her A's. Furthermore our departing period is not short, 2 long years. It was saddening to know that though we may have our happy moments now, soon these will fades to bitter memories.

There are times when i tell myself I've to stay strong, because if she was around, she will want me to be strong too. We shall believe in ourselves now, and even when she was around, she will wants me to think that way too. Indeed, she was a torch of optimism which sparked my life. Whenever I looked at her, I saw life and hope.

Now i can only say this:

Remember the past, hope for the future and cherish the present.

I could not express how much she was to me now. I can only say that I was thinking of her every day. She thanked me yesterday. I was so touched. I should thank her more instead.

There are some things i wanted to tell her; I wish I could. You will know when time comes.

All da best for the coming Mid-year's, play hard study hard. I shall be there for you, miss ya.