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Saturday, July 07, 2007

Forgivance in Confession.

I still remembered once Mrs Kok shared with us one of her wise thoughts: Life is all about choice. Indeed, life is all about choice and in your life is either you made your own choices or others made that choice for you. Me, i'm more comfortable making my own choice.

Of course, in life you have to make difficult choices. One that may be right to you yetincorrect to others, and today i'd made that choice. I practically screwed up everything. I choose to went off attending to other matter yet undermining the planning from others. In the end, I favoured one side and flared up the other, choices is never that easy.

I'd remembered one time where our deputy heads falred up on us during a national day rehearsal at East Coast. At that time, everyone was both stunned and shocked. Then at the end of the day, she was pretty gloomy that she had screamed at us, feeling bad about it. Then i remembered telling her:

Do not regret what you have done, because at that time you think it was the right thing to do therefore you had done it.

Indeed, everyone wanted to do the right thing. So do I. So in the end, didn't know that the programme was ending soon, I went back to receive thrashing. I know that I will gonna receive thrashing. My dep. Head still asked me why I came back?! In the end everything comes with a give and take. I choose to undermined it, I know what will happen and I'm willing to take the price. Thanks Mr Principal, you thought me that. I'll never ever forget how you teach that to me.

However in the end everything turns out differently. Everyone seemed different than I thought. The heads knew that I did that for a reason and respect my reason, the I/C willing to forgive me for what I'd done. Suddenly every attitude seems to have changed. It is no longer the attitude to confess nor the attitude to forgive, but the attitude to understand. I thought that not informing anyone is a good thing, yet to them informing someone is necessary. I thought that I owe them an explanation yet to them is more of understanding each other.

No one cares about you until they know how much you care for them.

Indeed, I agree that it's true. Now participating in the coming investiture is no longer participating with responsibility but with the sense of belonging. I have to work even harder to compensate the loss today. For a collective beautiful close, we have to.

If everyone was as understanding, the World is gonna be an even more wonderful place.

Still have one more friend to apologise to, and soon, still have one more highly devine to face regarding my SGC. He has played me long enough.