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18th: 1 Man with 8 Dreams

Today was a pretty surprising day! Haha I thought that since this year's Bday falls on a saturday, I can't expect much for my Birthday this year. Still, those who are there will draw a litle of their time and put in a little efforts to make this simple day as memorable as possible. I wished everyone all the best in their life too! Thx people!

This year's was indeed a simpler ones as compared to last year's. Haha of course mostly is because of the coming prelims. Yet I'm contented and appreciate the efforts those present to put in a little heart into it, to make today the very least looks like a birthday celebration. I do not hold grudges those who wasn't around, I do not stop them from studying for the coming Prelim. So long as they have the heart, even if it's just a little sms wishes, I'm very happy already.

And it's because of the fact that J2 have exams very frequently, that's why seldom there's opportunity for an outing this semester. Really missed the days being in J1: where half the time chionging tutorials and exams, the other half still have time to go out slack and play Bball; but to think about it, may be that's why unlike the other top scorers, there's difficulties locking the knowledge in my head. Now trying all means just to remember it: mind maps, drawings, lists... Trying everything so long as it keeps into my head. Despite the disappointment that time flew so fast, life still have to move on.

What's my 18 wishes for this year? Haha I didn't made to many wishes anyway. Still, I prefer to keep it my little secret, cos I believe it will come true when remained not disclosed! Now I only can say i've stepped into the next transition state. Now no longer a boy boy anymore, or at least God really timed my hormones accurately, I now tends to see things more differently and more seriously. To think about it, it's not good being a boy boy: a boy boy is forever full of enthusiast and passion, always never exhausted from energy in whatever he's doing. Yet now i have to be more responsible in my actions and goals, responsible for myself and others.

Soon in the future i'll be on my own: I'll be jumping into the poplation where definitely full of different types of people, unlike in schools where you can see the similarities among us. It will be indeed a challenging one, mentally and emotionally.

Now i'm even more convinced that in the future I'll have to be a even stronger person.

Firstly, I would like to thank my family for the full 18 years of my life. They are the ones who went through with me for the 18 years on my life. I still remembered my mum wrote this in my bday card last year:

"I'm fortunate yo live with you for the current 17 years..."

Although not everything parents will agree with their children, I'm so glad that my parents not just willing to be my parents, but at the same time growing with me as parents. Next time when i am going to be one, I must drop that attitude that parents are everything, but growing to be a parent with the child is more important. Family is the first gift to my life.

Secondly, I wish to thank my friends, everyone that stepped into my life. There are those who I remembered till now, those whose images started to fade and those who had already stepped out of my life. I always believe this:

No matter whether is it an event happening or a person stepped in to your life, everything happened for a reason.

This i believed that all those friends that stepped into my life the hold an unknown purpose. I saw those stepped away from my life, there's always some memories between both of us that it once keep us together and it is something that later separated us. Mistakes made in the past, most importantly is to never make it again in life. Second gift to my life.

Lastly, i wanna thank my God for trusting me, letting me love someone again. I still remembered during my teenage years, crushed every now and then, never know when it is the right time in life. Just when I was standing at the razor edge about to fall off from hope after the final blow, God granted me a friend which stirred my emotions, gave me back the feelings which i'd lost and about to give up. She would everytime wanted to be with me, whenever day or night, rain or shine, to be with me to show me that she will be around for me. Similarly, I love her so much that I thought of the same way as her too. Yet I wanted her to know me better first and i wanted to know her too. Both of us hold onto a same dream: a dream of devotion and peace. I never deny that there's still a long way for that dream to come true. Hold onto me tightly, we will grow and face it together, we can do it.

Like every other gifts i received, i wanted to love and teasure her forever too. She's the of those best gifts given to me at my 18th Bday. I love you.

Indeed, 18th mark the year of maturity. Still, I'm not going to give up my child-like identity to maturity. Who say's you can't be a matured boy?

1 Man with 8 Dreams in life. Hoping it will comes true. All the best to everyone and may their dreams come true.

Far Away

Everyday, we lived a day of separation, a day where i only who she's safe at home at night and tell her how much i missed her every day through the sms.

However, although we may be distant, yet our hearts are closer than ever.

I would like to dedicate this song to her: Far away by Nickelback

Music: A pianist's story

Somehow or another, i seems to be attracted to piano easily. Since young, i always love piano musical, later older, would promised myself one day to pick up piano. Although in the end i ended up being a basketballer, i still hold the dream that one day someone will teach me how to play piano. Coincidently, various pianist stepped into my life. I always feel that being a pianist was cool, fully engrossed in playing the story of a score.

The first pianist was when it was sec 1, one of the first girlfriends i had since 6 years of isolation in a boy's school. I still remember how the feelings i had when i was pretending to cut the structures for our art work while she was fully engrossed in her playing. So soothly and warm, it was as if i could feel the deep stories of her life through the music. For once, I fell in love with music, for once, my first crush. Although it's tempting to hold onto the feeling i had last time, i will not have met one that really touched my heart if i would never let it go.

The second one was Mr Timothy. Haha one of the few interesting dude i met in SR. Although I can say both of us are like buddy now, sometimes i still don really understand what was in his mind. Sometimes as i converse with him, I can feel that concurrently she was thinking of something else. Ha didn't really blame him, i was tangled in this bad habit though. Always happen when not enough sleep. Well, he was one cool charming dude, gotta admit. I bet soon he will be famous for his perforance at the National day eve. Well recognised and applauded. At least he has talents.

Finally was the one who i loved most. Coincidently she was a pianist too. Not that i fell in love with her simply because she was a pianist, I fell in love with her because I feel the warmth and attention of a pianist. There are times when she was discouraged that she was just a rookie. Yet I hope that she will not be discouraged anymore simply because she started to play piano later than others. She was a simple girl. I even once told her that:

she was so innocent and that's she will be easily bullied. Yet it's because of this i ll have to look after her more, to protect her more.

She was so innocent that i never wanna hurt her in anyway. She started to talk to me more. I wanna know her more, talk to me. It's optimism that strenthen us together and it is hope that keep us going.

Soon she will be taking her piano exam soon and at most i can only encourage her to finish it with all the best, beautifully.

Many things come in life only once, thus why not just do it beautifully once and for all?

just like her: a beautiful person like her only step into my life once, I must as well care for her for all i can since i'm still breathing.

I'm looking forward that she can play Cannon in d one day. Although i initially thought she would be ready soon, looks like i gotta wait for it longer. Well, it doesn;t matter, i'll wait. For when she play it, she do not have to play it the way i heard it in my younger life. I want her to play it with her own style, for the person I love is her, not anyone else.

Maksim's Exodus. Enjoy.