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HEART, MIND and SOUL

Hey ya guys!!! Ahhh today is such a relaxing break. Now finally realised how precious everyday is!

Haha think the road march for the past few days is super xiong. Today woke up my whole body cramped lah! Thigh aching, back aching, shoulder also aching... So shiok! Haha trying to psycho myself, my muscles are growing!

Later in the day went out with dear dear to go K-ing. Haha yes i know i'm not that singing type, but well, knowing that she enjoyed herself, that's most important. Haha it's an enjoyable session anyway! First time sing before so many songs... Male singer, female singer... Even mixed singer also sing! Haha during the session we sang QIAN LI ZI WAI by Jay and Fei Yuqing. Tell ya, it's so comical lahz! Dear will sing those by Jay, then those by Fei Yuqing? I'll have to take it lahz! Now I hate him, sang at such a high tune! That song sure made me feel 30 years older now.

Well, today we sure had fun. Dunno why had such a courage to do such silly thing (which eventually turns out fun), despit it costs us a bomb. Maybe it's time I should try something new, perhaps it's time i learn something from dear. Haha sometimes should learn to have fun bahz. Thanks dear!

Most importantly, Dear dear had fun today. Soon I'll be enlisted again, but I know surely day by day will pass very fast. Because I know, there's at least one girl waiting for me to come out. I'd promised myself that even it's just an hour a week, I must give her happiness for that hour, for her bravery, I will. For she deserves it.

For with my HEART, MIND and SOUL, one day I'll be a man to protect the ones and things I love. Training to be soldiers.

Thank you dear, despite we're distant apart, our hearts are closer than ever, for dear dear I love you.

Happy New Year everyone! Ask for my blessings, thx!!! ^^

Hope can hear dear sings this song again, her singing is the sweetest on this piece: YUE YA WAN - FIR

Tough time don last tough man do!

Hey world!!! Haha I'm so relieved that finally booked out again le! Although this break is quite short, well it's better than nothing still X)

Well, when I first get home I read my dear's blog. It seems that dear dear is starting to get use to our lifestyle. Although I'm feeling glad for her, I still feel a little sad over it. Still remembered our last outing when I was going to be enlisted, her tears wet my shoulder and I can only convinced her that this 2 years soon will be over. Then on our previous outing, the same thing happened again, yet that time is different. That time I know how hard it can really be, how far we can really be away, how badly both of us can miss each other. I can only pat her head and silently looked at her.

Sometimes I felt so helpless. Sometimes I still tell her that no matter what happens, I'll be the first person to appear to stay with her. Yet I felt so helpless in camp. Although I just left for Tekong, at times when I heard she had problems, I could not be there. Even worst is the pain knowing that she will be staying at home, alone needed company, yet I will be out having training. So negative, so pessimistic.

I once asked my Sergeant: am I weak?

You are not weak when you are worried over small matters, you are just concerned. You will only be weak when you think you are weak.

I've never met that wise man before, yet I'm totally convinced with him. You are who you think you are, not by others or by anything. Everyone has their own strength and weaknesses. So do I. Perhaps even though I've accepted the fact that I'm now NSF, I'm still having difficulties letting go certain things. The more I tell myself Dear dear will take care of herself, the more I'll worry about her. Perhaps now it's that time that I should be convinced that Dear dear really can look after herself bah. Needs time, more time.

This few days everyone in my platoon is going super high, so time fly pretty fast. Next one even better, heard booking out in 3 days. This time I'll be strong, for the country, for our freedom, for myself and for her. If now I couldn't even look after my own self, how am I going to look after her in the future? Furthermore I've promised her not to think so much, should keep the sacred words too.

Now knowing dear dear's having ther own programmes to occupy herself, I should be glad too. Honestly, somehow I stil feel somethings dear dear still didn't wanna tell me. Still, I'll not force her to, I'll have to give her space. For all I know, if she is to tell me anything, my ears will always ready, for her.

Heard other platoon shouting this after water parade, perhaps 2 yrs really will be in a blink of an eye. I love her very much, know she'll look after herself. There shall be Faith and Hope.

Tough time don't last, tough man do!

Dear I love you, my heart will always be with you.

May everyone be enlightened with faith and hope. I believe... Dear I'll be with you down this endless road :)

Bravery in my Tears

Hey ya all!! finally it's my first book out! Haha for every moment in camp I always tell myself I'll can;t wait to come out, now finally I'm free! But sadly, I'll ve to be book in on X'mas night, shucks spoiler. Well, for now gotta cherish every moment happening now!

Actually I'm very happy during my first book out. Although Dear might not be the first person I met after my book out, I'm still able to catch up with her during the next day. Though after today I'll ve to date her againafter my next book out, I cherished every seconds we were together. For some reasons, everytime when spent out with her, time seems to pass so fast, yet those in camp pass by so slowly...

Firstly, I'll like to thank my dear dear for always being with me throughout this difficult time. Still remember the first few nights of the camp, I'll silently shed tears as I call her at night. It was later that I realised she in fact trying hard not to cry too. I really miss her, and I always do. Since the first day we have been together she had became a very important person in my life. She is just like the torch that lit up my heart in the dark, the light house to guide the lost ship or the gentle warm breeze by the beach: she's my everything. Every night I call her I'll uncontrollably cried silently as I misses her badly.

Still remember when I sought advice from my first SERGEANT:

You should look forward to the book out everyday, instead of looking at how miserable you are now.

That does not help much, as i misses dear dear even more each day. Then I found the COMMANDER:

You are even luckier than me for you even have a gf waiting for you outside. You should call them tell them how much you miss them even when you were to cry, for they misses you too.

Still, not that enlighten, till I spoke to my bunkmate:

If you love her, you should focus on your work now so you can call her tonight. Tell her honestly how much you miss her and how you felt for what a girl wants to her from their bf is not sweet words but those from the heart.

He've been such a great help. Although I still felt sad in camp, at least it made me feel better.

Still remembered when dear dear weeped silently in my arms the day before I'm enlisted, I told her to be strong and be brave. Now I understands it was not easy. And now I know, and should tell her, to shed tears is not wrong. Simply in camp was hard, not the lifestyle I wanted. At the same time missed dear dear s gentle touch and sweet voice. The gentle touch in which convinced me that no matter what happens there will be someone to be with me, the sweet voice that convinced me she will be around. Today she cried again. Helplessly I can only promised her that I'll get for her something to cheer her up, for at least she had something to look forward to. I know, soon i'll be in camp again, it'll be my turn.

To think about it i never hated camp. For there's nothing I should hate at all. For it was everyday that I worry about my dear dear that I cried. Dunnno if she's doing well outside, dunno if she's enjoying her day with friends, wonder if she's safe, wonder is there anyone bullied her shilw i'm not ard. So many doubts so many worries that everntually I broke down. Worst of all, I even worried that one day she might not take it that she might left me.

Eventually I'm so touched when every night she will tell me that she looks forward to my book out. For once I felt that I'm the luckiest man, even better than my COMMANDER. Despite the hardships both of us is facing, both of us might cried silently while missing each other, emotionally she's strong. Sometimes she's even better than I do, in her heart she;s strong and brave. Yet in camp I'm thinking of such silly things. This gives me energy to be strong, never to be paranoid. Even if i breakdown again, I shed tears with dignity cos everything I do in camp is for the best for her, so wanna do her proud.

Right now I only have one thing, is that she will stay happy for the rest of the days. to think in the long term, I wish that she will be there with my parents during my POP. Today I spoke to my mummy about her and they even met, she's alright with it.

May heaven bless her, for everyday I'll shed tears with bravery like her. If in the future we will live happily ever after, for this little hardship is all worth it.

Dear, no matter what happens, darling will be facing it with you. Don be too sad over it le k? I love you always... I'll make you proud.

Lord bless us, He will

Time flies really fast, so soon that I'll be enlisted in 2 days. Indeed there's a little fear in me - phobie that I'll lose my status and insecurity in to an uniform camp, yet even if I feel that way that will not change my day of enlistment either. I will rather be a big man, face it and enlisted on that day with others.

There will be things which I'll miss. One of those is my bed. Wonder if the bed there will be comfy as my house. One thing for sure they do not have afternoon nap. Well, I'll ended up sweaty on my bed in the afternoon anyway, think Tekong's more cooling?

Then I'll miss my friends. They are those who had stepped in my life: though some stayed, some had left. For those who had left, I send equal blessings to thier happiness in life. Yet regardless whether they are still with me or not, I still wanna thank them. Thank you for stepping into my life. Whether we started out as good buddies or ended up separated, it was u all that shaped me into who I'm. It was u all that trained and teach me the principles of life: what is teamwork what is peer support, what is enthusiasm and what is disappointment. Soon in Army I'll be mentally challeged, yet with these basic principles living within me, I know I'll mixed equally well in the army community too. First Thank to my friends.

Second I'll miss my family. In fact I won have anything to say much cos they are cruel: parents who can't wait to see me go army, a mother is so enthusiast than me till to the extent in which there s no difference from her joy now seeing me go army and struck lottery, and a sister who even more than happier for me to go army cos she wans me to experience the joy of camping in being a hardcore camper like her. Think she deserves to go Army too - hidden talent. Well, it was my family that taught me the meaning of life and now it is soon that these teaching will be put to practice. Second thanks to my family.

Lastly, not to be missed, I'll miss my beloved dear dear. My dear dear as never fails to stand beside me. If I'm the shield she will be the sword, if I'm the rain she will be the wind and if i'm liang shan buo she 'll be zhu ying tai. There's no words to describe my affection for her. Whenever I see her hurt, I felt the hurt too. Always thinking that there had to be something that I can do for her to cheer her up. Now time not much left, I hope if I don have the chance to say these to her at least she might read my blog and say it:

Dear dear, thank you for being my beloved girlfriend. Actually i should thank you for stepping into my life at all! I'm so proud of having u as my gf: no matter how others look at you, must remember that it was how you see yourself that is important most. Everyone is meant for something. Some are meant to do big things yet some are meant to do the smallest. Yet in fact it was you that define what you are meant to be. Believe in yourself in what ever you do and go all for it, so long as it is what you want it to be. Darling will belive in you. There are so many things to tell you, but if I were to list everything, it will be even longer than my 6 pages history essay. most important now is to let you know that No matter what happens darling s heart will always be with you, for now. I believe that one day Darling will learn the magic and appear when dear dear needed someone most. I'll lend you my shoulder to lie on when u needed one, be the helping hand to catch you when u are about to fall, the gentle smile to share your joy. Look forward to that day can? Believe. Dear, I love you. I'll come out soon, wait for me.

Loving you is one of the happiest moment in my life and being loved by you is the most enjoyable moments in my life.

*muahz* Dear dear I love you, I'll miss you. Thank you for being with me. I'd done the right thing in choosing you as my gf: I'm so proud - I love you. This Song is for you.

Hope thy lord will bless upon us. There are many things for us to learn, for all of us.

What important most is eventually we have don the right thing and it is what we wants.

May lord bless upon Earth, He will...