Hey ya ppl! It has been quite some time since i blogged le, seems like even dear dear also complaining my blog getting dusty without frequent maintainance ;P Hahaha actually I prefer to blog when I'm troubled, hence hope I don have to blog that frequent!
Well this week has been pretty rough for me. Many misunderstandings happened between me and others, resulted in many little friction these days. One of it happened in camp and I believe what happened in camp should be settled in camp, hence do not wish to discuss it here. Then I will talk about another then :)
I should say I'm quite at fault for assuming too many things. In fact today happened to be my friend's birthday. It happen a few days ago when one of them contacted me asking me if I'm free this sun, which is today. I replied "ok, I'm free :)" then hope to keep in contact. I waited for some updates, expecting it to be very soon because I will be out for field camp on wed and thurs, hoping that I still can find company to replace sun IF the celebration was cancelled. Waited and waited, it was till fri that I haven't received anything, then I assumed it was cancelled. My BIG mistake. Because I could not convince my parents to excuse myself from Family day, I dated my another company and Alo! Here comes the details on Sat night. I know this situation sux, cos I forced myself stuck in between and it feel sux.
One hand I can't cancel the thing I organised, another because I assumed it is cancelled hence I'm still expected to attend the celebration. Furthermore it was a gathering with old buddies, one that I've looked forward for long long time, so do they. Unfortunately I ve to bit on and not able to absent from the celebration.
When one say life is about choices then I will say it does feel bad even if you made the right choice.
I was guilty to ve pang seh them, furthermore disppoint them. Hope things can turn better, next time should contact them more. Sorry guys, especially Eliz, not able to join ya ppl today:
Happy Birthday Eliz!
On another hand, to day wasn't that bad too. Haha just went over to watch KUNG FU PANDA in the afternoon and CHRONICLES OF NARNIA just now. Haha I know it sounds super insane, and I agrees, but it was enjoyable, especially both were with ones who I loved most. It gave me so much warmth and acceptance, that typw of security and belonging that I never felt before in camp. So much for army... So wish things can get better, wanna feel this way always.
Thank you my dearest family and close ones, thank you for today. Thank God for letting me live to feel it too. I love ya... ;)