Sunday, July 19, 2009
Reminiscence: It's all happening again?Hey yohz ppl!! N hi bloggy... Rah! hahax it ve been such a long time since i last blogged lahz. Sheesh think i m blogging once per mth on average lahz. Haha sheesh but also can't blame me for tt, most of the time i'm so bored!! ok, at least ever since a'm single again...
Well, it's like ever since I'm single again, suddenly it seems I've the whole World lots of time for myself. Although I've that much of time, I don seems to know what to do with it. Luckily there re B'day gatherings these weeks, otherwise I must as well sell my weekends for weekend duty in camp lahz =D but heard system in there changed, think better don't...
Well, talking about single again, I wonder how she's doing. Actually I've contacted her a few weeks ago, sounds rather reluctant. Of cos she has to, I'm the guy wreaking the place anyway. Still, wonder how she's doing though *just CURIOUS!!!* Wonder if there's another guy she'll think of more. Think that will be better too. She don't seems to grow for the better with me anyway.
Mayb it's cos of that and now with another one, they made me feel that mayb I wasn't suppose to be with someone at all. It's like wth? Y God had to punish all women around me to suffer from mental distress and study pressure, ending up not even happy? Ok, mayb for her it's quite different. She knows what she wants and she's willing to fight for it. "just a little fall," I'll tell her, " you will fight again!" And she'll move on the next day, thats what i love about her, her spirit.
Despite our frequent exchange of smses, I'm still very confused towards her.
Few weeks ago, I happen to visit her facebook. Well, That's qn no.1 : How would 2 ppl know for sometime ald n didn't asked to xchange facebook? Mayb we can't be bothered :)
Then I saw the profile pix n it horrified me at tt instance *serious*: He took e pix with a guy. Now serious qn no.2: How would u wanna contact with another guy who u know tt he's after u when u're in a relationship (assuming tts her bf) ?!?!
Seriously, her that facebook nearly killed me. But well I've get over it.
If that's her bf, so what? if it isn't, still so what? Whether is he or not, I won't know and i won't wanna know. Even if she tells me he is, so what?
As there's so many qns and doubts flooding you, you'll come to realise that actually find that life is simple, it's we that're complicated!It seems that whether is he or not she's still a student pursueing for her A's and I'm still in NS serving my time. whether what will happened I won't know but if worst comes to worst, I hope that guy would had treated her and cared for her or valued her more than i do, and I hope that's y she's with him.
Whatever will be, will be. I'm just doing my part. God bless and good luck! :)
Hamster
Friday, July 10, 2009