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Thursday, August 20, 2009

Where m i and Where should i go?

Hey yohz ppl, hahaha it seems like me blogging once in a long long time has become a habit. Well, at least i still blogged right?! xD

Well, this time pretty lots of things happened. Firstly, maybe it's because you have put in a lot of effort into a relationship, letting it go has become so difficult. Well, these days dunno why have the urge to go see how's ex's doing, so took a peek at her blog. Seems like she's not doing so well, but, does it matter anymore? Ever since we broke up, mayb she had been living with more hope and enthusiasm, I wasn't even mentioned at all. Up till now, what is she doing, what is she doing who m i towards her, these so many many qn still do not have an answer yet. What have I been doing these 2 years? I dunno if does it even matters at all. Mayb still, it's a good thing we're separated anyway.

Then she came in. Few days ago i received a shock in my life when she said she'd been lying to me. Why, why did she have to lie to me? Didn't she trust me at all? It's cos of that it made me think of many things. She said she lied to me that she patched up last mth n just broke, and she lied to me cos i m motivation her n suppotive towards her. Who m i to her? Does that means I m of importance to her in fact? Or issit i m just a councellor to her? I dunno.

It's said that humans are animals of habits, but I think i really dunno what's going on now.

These few days have been pretty reluctant to msg her. she too, or less frequent at least. Thinking that if she's sad, she ll be sad over her Ex, i dunno how should i react. M i too good a person, too self-less? If this little pain can make her appreciate me more, I don maind too.

I like her as the person and i love her company. My reasons are that simple.

God bless the Earth.