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Ignorance is bliss

Hello peeps! A happy moon cake festive!

Haha hey well, this week happened quite a lot of things too. First is camp, haha got confined last week and forced me to push my tea session till today. Well gotta say, THE TEA SESSION'S FANTASTIC MAN! HAHA! IF NOT FOR THE ORGANISER... haha ok, shouldn't say that, Jan and Li will sure to boycott my next gathering if i'm so hao lian again. But yet, I still gottat thanks Limin and Janice for their ENTHUSIASTIC PARTICIPATION TOO! haha thanks limin for the food and mooncakes! and thanks janice for the lantern and candles! Haha well, of cos i still gotta thank my mummy and daddy for helping out while at home too, they are great back stage crew man: U all rox! ^^

Well, tonight sure had a great time and i should agree the settings and all, there's no one better to spend with other then great friends man * KHAKI ROX!!* Haha then Li min and Janice ll gossip gossip ask me: hey when you re gonna get a good catch? Haha good question: my type of Good catch might not exist anymore!

Haha ya, these few days do happened a lot of things to her and between me and her too. Ok, it's bcos words are like spilled milk, once said it's never gonna be undone, so i do not wish to say much about about what happened to her and comment much what happened between us. Or should i say, there is nothing between us to talk about at the first place? Well girl, i know you are saying me things lahz, thx man.

'well, mayb she's just being polite by not telling u directly', said Jan n Li.

Ok, too polite. I'll rather you tell me abt it. *sigh* Forget about it lahz, she won't wanna tell me anything anyway. let it be *shrugg*

ignorance is bliss >.0 pissed.

CRAZY RIDE (POSSIBLY MORE TO COME!!!)

Hello peeps!! *wheew* i'm so glad that finally this crazy week is over, but sadly, there's more to come!!!

Ok people, this week is the craziest week i've in my life. Although all the field trainings are over, the trainings are insane!!! *urgh* Hope i dont ended up with any broken arms these few days, more martial arts lesson to come!!!

Ok, the trainings are one thing, weekend activities is another. Well, or at least it's kinda fulfilling.

Well, went out with Ah jan and Ah li on fri to have dinner and kind of like a hang out. Haha gotta say, hanging out with them is the best lahz, although I felt a little cheated when my tokens only allowed 2 tries on the Drum master at ILLUMA arcade whereas JAN's and LI's gotta enjoy 4 tries!!! WHAT>?! SO NOW MACHINE ALSO FAVOR THE GIRLS! ohh so the machine has to be a male one lahz, i see *shrugg* haha well, eventually kinda enjoyed ourselves and is still looking forward to the next one :)

Then today (ok, YTD since now is 2am in the morning, so u know how crazy i m this weekend) had my CIP at the SAS. At first i had no clue what SAS was, other than it's the Spastic Children's Association of Singapore. To my surprised, the actually have adults to senior patients there despite the place is for 'CHILDREN". Well, I was briefed that the patients there suffered from cerebal palsy, I dont say it's an illness which my buddy asked me about it, but it's a disorder (so far this is a more correct term i know) that the part of the brain which controls the 'motor' of ur body is 'haywired', either before/during/after birth. So some of them they are actually not itellectually disabled, but they just seems like one. Well, although my beneficaries can't speak, he kinda like understood the passsage i read to him this morning lahz. Kinda embarrassing when my 'guide' said he is more intelligent than others there when i still read to him as though he didn't understands me. Haha i must have treated him like an idiot and i'm feeling to be like one lahz *sigh*.


Well, talking about feeling idiot and talking about CIP, both seems like to be more and more reasons to each other. Ohh, why do i said that? Well, because the World is such a complicated place which made me feel like an idiot sometimes and i enjoyed doing CIP because they are less complicated.

I dunno why but as time passes by, I felt the World is such a complicated place. The more I seems to know about something or someone, the more i felt strange and unknown towards it.

Well, maybe it s becos i m gg crazy which i hope not, kinda like doing CIP cos whenever i looked at the beneficaries funny-ly or not, i kinda able to hear their heart, felt thier stories, sense their simple joy and liveli-ness, despite of their looks, their body dysfunction that made them looks intimidating and felt frightened towards them. It's as though there's something God wants me to know, God wants me to do or even what God wants me to learn from them! To be honest, the thought of doing CIP initially does not come from the mind, but from some gut feeling of who knows what. And it is joining activities with them that i felt more peace and more consoled inside me. They made me feel that i'm spending my time more meaningful and i'm living a more simple life.

Life has been so complicated that even WE have become complicated too. Our simple mind had functioned in such a complex manner that even at times we could not justify the things that we do. Maybe this philosophy is true, as adapted from words of a Crystalline child in BEYOND INDiGO CHILDREN:

We ought to look at the way we treated each other, and it's only then, we might treat each other better.

Hence although the World have became a huge nuclear reactor, it's the more our soul should find more peace and it's the more we should know what we are doing.

Well, just played an application on facebook: What God wants you to know, and it's kinda surprising is we re really controlling out own fate or fate is controlling us, sterring our lives all along.

God wants me to know today (at this moment) that it's time to remember who I really am.

Because of her, my life steered a little out of place. And it's because of her too, that the more i wanted to help others. Maybe that's a bitter twisted fate.

Well, what God had prepared for me now, I don't know. May be somethings are not meant to be known, but to follow the path you believe in and God will guide you along the way.

Listen, the universe is talking to us. Kinda sense sadness right now, i think i know who is it, ciao~ =)

Life's a simple, why not let be be simple?

Haha hey yohz peeps! Wheew finally able to changed my blog skin, it've been like a big catastrophe when i'm trying to change my blog's skin lahz. Posts went all over the place, navigations went haywire, it's as if Taiwan's typhoon hit my blog this time =D Well, finally get one good one and gonna stick with it! And also, HOW COME MOST FANTASTIC BLOG SKINS ARE DESIGNED BY GIRLS?! Maybe God became bias when it comes to creativity.

Well, I'm such a relieve to have changed my blog skin. Well, thinking that maybe i should be more responsible for my own health being and I should have a fresh good start. Actions speak louder than Words, isn't it?

Well, if having a kick at the stomach means feeling lousy, ths few days must have caused me badly beaten lahz. Firstly, I haven't been replying her for 2 days ald. Ok, maybe not that bad, since it's me who chose not to reply her! Haha ok, I know I'm the source of my own problem, but something just tell me not to disturb her anyway. Who m i anyway? Think she enjoys it somehow, I think. Then is just FOR GOD KNOWS WHY, i go see my Ex's blog again. Well, that is really a hard one and follow by a twist at my intestines.

It's always the hardest for me to see that there's so little of me, even if there's it's also of hate and disappointment, which makes me think that who m i really to her? Is my presence of no special to her? I didn't really know myplace in her heart at all. Maybe breaking up is the right thing after all.

Well, good thing next. Gonna meet up with khakis-es this week although my buddy's pretty sad case, gonna do duty during off day this fri ^^ haha, ok I know i'm evil, if it was me he will laugh at me anyway! =D Then still got CIP this sat, beneficiaries's children from SPASTIC CHILDREN'S ASSOCIATION of SINGAPORE; I will be loving! xD

Ok, gtg book in back camp again, ciao~ ^^

What have I been doing for my this few years? Have I been doing something meaningful into others life, or just simply mine?

when i looked at the vounteer leaders, her eyes filled with committment and focus. She's firm and determined in doing something she wants and i know she will achieve it.

Then what about me? Have i been doing good deeds to earn a good 'report card' for my life? I dunno.

Thinking of in jc, i can't help anyone much. The more i tries to help others, the more tired i becomes. Ended up after 2 years, many still haven't recovered from the hurt from their A level. Then i started to think of my ex, once I wish to help her for her A's, but it ended up screwing up everything, dunno she or i or mayb both, we were never happy since then. Now it's Anngi girl, living in her own dream which she own admits 'stupid' but i tihnk it's just selfless and senseless, and what i ve been doing all along is to thrash the dream that keeps her going. Mayb i should let her indulge in her own belief to clear A's first? Mayb i should let go.