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Sunday, September 13, 2009

CRAZY RIDE (POSSIBLY MORE TO COME!!!)

Hello peeps!! *wheew* i'm so glad that finally this crazy week is over, but sadly, there's more to come!!!

Ok people, this week is the craziest week i've in my life. Although all the field trainings are over, the trainings are insane!!! *urgh* Hope i dont ended up with any broken arms these few days, more martial arts lesson to come!!!

Ok, the trainings are one thing, weekend activities is another. Well, or at least it's kinda fulfilling.

Well, went out with Ah jan and Ah li on fri to have dinner and kind of like a hang out. Haha gotta say, hanging out with them is the best lahz, although I felt a little cheated when my tokens only allowed 2 tries on the Drum master at ILLUMA arcade whereas JAN's and LI's gotta enjoy 4 tries!!! WHAT>?! SO NOW MACHINE ALSO FAVOR THE GIRLS! ohh so the machine has to be a male one lahz, i see *shrugg* haha well, eventually kinda enjoyed ourselves and is still looking forward to the next one :)

Then today (ok, YTD since now is 2am in the morning, so u know how crazy i m this weekend) had my CIP at the SAS. At first i had no clue what SAS was, other than it's the Spastic Children's Association of Singapore. To my surprised, the actually have adults to senior patients there despite the place is for 'CHILDREN". Well, I was briefed that the patients there suffered from cerebal palsy, I dont say it's an illness which my buddy asked me about it, but it's a disorder (so far this is a more correct term i know) that the part of the brain which controls the 'motor' of ur body is 'haywired', either before/during/after birth. So some of them they are actually not itellectually disabled, but they just seems like one. Well, although my beneficaries can't speak, he kinda like understood the passsage i read to him this morning lahz. Kinda embarrassing when my 'guide' said he is more intelligent than others there when i still read to him as though he didn't understands me. Haha i must have treated him like an idiot and i'm feeling to be like one lahz *sigh*.

Well, talking about feeling idiot and talking about CIP, both seems like to be more and more reasons to each other. Ohh, why do i said that? Well, because the World is such a complicated place which made me feel like an idiot sometimes and i enjoyed doing CIP because they are less complicated.

I dunno why but as time passes by, I felt the World is such a complicated place. The more I seems to know about something or someone, the more i felt strange and unknown towards it.

Well, maybe it s becos i m gg crazy which i hope not, kinda like doing CIP cos whenever i looked at the beneficaries funny-ly or not, i kinda able to hear their heart, felt thier stories, sense their simple joy and liveli-ness, despite of their looks, their body dysfunction that made them looks intimidating and felt frightened towards them. It's as though there's something God wants me to know, God wants me to do or even what God wants me to learn from them! To be honest, the thought of doing CIP initially does not come from the mind, but from some gut feeling of who knows what. And it is joining activities with them that i felt more peace and more consoled inside me. They made me feel that i'm spending my time more meaningful and i'm living a more simple life.

Life has been so complicated that even WE have become complicated too. Our simple mind had functioned in such a complex manner that even at times we could not justify the things that we do. Maybe this philosophy is true, as adapted from words of a Crystalline child in BEYOND INDiGO CHILDREN:

We ought to look at the way we treated each other, and it's only then, we might treat each other better.

Hence although the World have became a huge nuclear reactor, it's the more our soul should find more peace and it's the more we should know what we are doing.

Well, just played an application on facebook: What God wants you to know, and it's kinda surprising is we re really controlling out own fate or fate is controlling us, sterring our lives all along.

God wants me to know today (at this moment) that it's time to remember who I really am.

Because of her, my life steered a little out of place. And it's because of her too, that the more i wanted to help others. Maybe that's a bitter twisted fate.

Well, what God had prepared for me now, I don't know. May be somethings are not meant to be known, but to follow the path you believe in and God will guide you along the way.

Listen, the universe is talking to us. Kinda sense sadness right now, i think i know who is it, ciao~ =)